Three years ago, Jessica’s parents were pondering a positive way to spend the five year anniversary of her death. They asked that people send in a story or memory about Jessica. I gathered stories and letters from many in our church – and even those who had moved away. They were wonderful, and they blessed her family greatly. Below is what I wrote for her parents and family on that five year anniversary……
(edited a bit for your understanding!)
Jessica was such a presence! I remember meeting her a couple of months after moving here, and learning that she was really the only student to be a part of the beginnings of MERCYhouse. She explained to me that she had talked quite a bit to John Ramirez at the Baptist Convention of New England about getting a church or ministry started at The University of Massachusetts. It was upon this meeting that I first saw her passion and tenacity in her love for the Lord and for ministry.
I remember her being in our home often and that the atmosphere was always one of joy and laughter and joking when she was present. She loved everyone – everyone was her friend! As my friend Shemaiah, who came here from Oklahoma to work with us for just a summer, has often said, “Jessica was my first friend in Massachusetts.” Jessica, who had known Shemaiah for all of about one hour invited her to go home with her that night and watch a movie with some other friends. She was always quick to inquire about how I was doing and was so generous with her hugs and words of comfort. If I was considered “Mom” at MERCYhouse, she was “Mom #2” – always looking out for the needs of others – physical, spiritual and emotional. She considered it her privilege and duty to make sure all those around her were thriving. One Valentine’s Day she gave me and several others a painted terra cotta planter. I still have it. It was such a blessing to me that she had thought of me along with her many other friends.
One of my favorite biblical subjects is that of created masculinity and femininity. When I began leading Bible Studies along these lines for the young women of our church, I began to hear rumblings that Jessica was not necessarily thrilled with this idea. She never told me this directly, but the other girls did. She felt that “submission” was a bad word associated only with doormats! We eventually talked about it, and together came to a place of friendly understanding and even the ability to joke about it from time to time.
Despite these strong feelings regarding the idea of submission, Jessica greatly desired to be married. She came to me on several occasions expressing bittersweet feelings over her friends becoming engaged, and her own struggle with loneliness.
I know that she carried around in her heart a lot of inner turmoil, insecurity, and emotion. And yet when we worshipped together at church through music or prayer, she was fully engaged, seeking the Lord with her whole being. Watching her always brought joy to my own insecure, emotional, and even at times, depressed and lonely heart. She was an example and inspiration to me in her walk with the Lord in this fallen world.
I will leave you with a verse that was found underlined in Jessica’s Bible. In the margin next to the verse she had written, “I like this verse.”
I Corinthians 1:18
wow…I don't really have any words.
What a lovely tribute to what sounds like a beautiful woman.
Let's hope people never forget that day…it seems like it is already beginning to slip away from public and private memory…
See you this weekend! 🙂
How lovely and powerful a lady she was… and I've only just met her.
Beautiful and touching post, Mel. Thank you so much for sharing.
Thank you for this. I've been thinking of her today!